Hungry

I couldn't stand it anymore. Another elderly man was found stabbed to death in his own home. That makes three violent crimes in one small town in one week. How did we get to this?
I waited until I caught the weather forecast for the next day. Then I switched the news off. The guide showed that another news program was going to cover transsexuals in the United States. In my mind I just think of the old cliche, "Hate the sin, love the sinner." But the thought doesn't do much for how I really feel. I wish I could love easier.
Since I am uninterested in what makes a man want to be a woman and vice versa, I turn over to the other channel. Great new show. CSI Austin. They oughta be able to catch a lot of wackos down there. Keep Austin weird. Isn't that what the bumper stickers say?
The show kicks off with a violent gang bang with all sorts of fancy special effects on the bodily fluids. Of course, the culprits are unknown and the investigators have to track them down through the glorious seedy underground. Beautiful drug addicted women and their muscular hairless boy toys fight over who deserves more attention and cash.
No more. Loss of eyesight just isn't worth it. Off with the television. I crack a book. It seems just another pastor writing out his plan for a good life. But I'm not him so I lose interest quick.
Now I'm bored. I could hit the internet and Google some things. Inevitably I'll end up somewhere I don't belong. I'll have to erase the hard drive to keep any evidence from creeping up later on. It's not really worth it.
I could take a walk, but it's after dark. Besides, I might get a cold. I can't afford that. I wish there was something better to do. I want something that doesn't deal with other people's lust. I want conversation to feed off of. I just want to hear some wholesome truth and be able to swap ideas on it. Is there anyone out there who just wants honest companionship? Doesn't someone want more than fleeting passionate flesh fulfillment?
I want righteousness. I hunger for it. I want it and I need it. Sure, I watch CSI and the evening news. It absolutely grates my conscience sometimes. It's not like I repeat the crimes. But still I want more. I want to sit with other adults and trade ideas about what Jesus said and wants. Then I want to put those words and thoughts into action in the power of the Spirit of God.
Jesus said I'd be filled if I hunger and thirst for righteousness. I hope he brings the plates by soon.